What reason is it that you seek what you seek.

Is it just for your sake,or is it ours.

The shadows of the past still follow,

echoing the feelings that still holds true today.

I bid you farewell,should your intention be clear,

For your presence turns my whole world upside down.

You make me reminisce,and make me weak for the moment,

In me i unknowingly pray that what was done can be undone.

What was,will all become present once more,

In my heart i silently hope..

Alright and for the solution to that Quiz...


If you were wearing the black hat, it would not take long for one of the other princes to deduce he was wearing a white hat. Therefore you must be wearing a white hat. If you were wearing a black hat, you could presume another prince would soon reason thus: Based on the fact that I see one black hat, and one white hat, I know I must be wearing a white hat. If I were wearing a black hat, the prince wearing a white hat would see two black hats and instantly know he was wearing a white hat. Therefore I must be wearing a white hat.

Life is just one big trap,backstabbers,liars,players,bastards and all.And you'd never know whose backstabbing you right now,and whose waiting to break you.

Sometimes i wonder who are the ones who are truly sincere,truly real,not some person putting up a show,hiding behind a veil or mask.I can't even make friends without wondering if it's something to set me up,i can't even not worry.

I've done nothing,kept a low profile,avoided offending people,just some normal guy and i just can't comprehend why shit has to always happen to me.I need a life,just a normal life,minus the labels,minus the misconceptions,and minus the backstabbers.

IQ question to get your brains all warmed up and running!

A king wants his daughter to marry the smartest of 3 extremely intelligent young princes, and so the king's wise men devised an intelligence test.

The princes are gathered into a room and seated, facing one another, and are shown 2 black hats and 3 white hats. They are blindfolded, and 1 hat is placed on each of their heads, with the remaining hats hidden in a different room.

The king tells them that the first prince to correctly identify the color of his hat will marry his daughter. A wrong guess will mean death. The blindfolds are then removed.

You are one of the princes. You see 2 white hats on the other prince's heads. After some time you realize that the other prince's are unable to deduce the color of their hat, or are unwilling to guess. What color is your hat?

Hitched a ride today,courtesy of mr ong my math teacher!Chatted a little along the trip,and inevitably came the question of,"How come you wanna be a teacher?" from me.He confidently answered that he liked to interact with students,and at the end of the day he'd wanna be doing a job that's fulfilling and not just one that really pays.

Kind of inspired by him,it is hard being a teacher,loads of passion and patience needed!The constant waiting for your assigned work to come back from students(well i know this cause,haha i still owe my chinese teacher a compo!=x) ,and enduring the constant noise the class makes,so on and so forth.

Maybe one day,just maybe,i might become a teacher!Yup mr Yap!

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%
and
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,

B-U-L-L-S-*-*-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far a** kissing will take you.

A-*-*-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Bulls**t and A** Kissing that will put you over the top.


P.s Saw this and found it funny!Goes out to my Best friend shang.=)

Did something stupid today,must have been half asleep in the morning thats why.Shan't dwell on it further.

Photos exist as a physical memory,one that sometimes you might dread to look at once again,or be glad to remember.Whatever the case i'm bad at handling photos of my past cause i never fail to reminisce bout the past,and somehow most of the times it just gets me depressed.

Was switching to another wallet and out came all the neoprints,looking at them made me just wanna smile yet cry at the same time.What used to be,has became what was.And what was might never become what is again.I'm weak,and it's true,i'm useless as a guy and all this while i thought i grew stronger....

`"I was finally getting over you and actually believing I didn't need you. I was finally accepting you had another girl. Then you smiled at me and ruined it all."

-unknown

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the tr ain, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To! realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when

you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

Saw this somewhere and it does make sense,time is running out for all Jc students,promos are coming!So study hard people!=)

It's alright to be ranked last among all the guys in the class by the girls,it's alright to be a jerk or stuff like that.
But please,paste on me any tag,but the one that says unfaithful.
I can accept anything,but just not that.
I've done nothing like that,and never will.
That very word disgusts me,and i don't think i'm close to that.Never was never would be.
Don't put me in the group of unfaithful,i'm not a player.
Don't brand me that,when you don't even know me...

oh ya,if you happen to be reading this,and happen to be studying in tpjc,and coincidentally happen to be a J1,REMEMBER TO BRING YOUR DICTIONARY!... Just a friendly reminder to those who don't know or don't remember there's a chinese exam tomorrow.=P

It hasn't even started,and it's bout to end.

I haven't even tried,and i'm close to giving up.

My hopes no longer even glimmer,not even a slight shimmer.

But i don't wanna give up,not now,not ever.

The girl's arm wrestling during chinese period,teacher took MC again..

School sucked today,suffered from monday blues,and totally felt like skipping school.
Me and ben were discussing our lives and we came to the conclusion that it sucks being in Jc and we'd be better off in poly.

Got screwed big time by my geography teacher,yes again,and i swear she picks on me and dominic.
I'm screwing up practically everything,just passed my econs test,just flunked physics again,and i think the best part is GP.Got 33 outta 50 for my essay,yayness!At least there's a tiny glimmer of hope in all this mess.

Funniest part i guess,was hilmi acting smart,dear hilmi went to the snack stall and decided to buy something using mandarin.Well he pointed to something and proceeded to say what he thought was "i want this" in mandarin.It sorta turned out to be,"Wo yao ni!" (I want you),made the aunties burst out in laughter,probably thought he was picking her up or something.=x

Ice cream!Mine was tiramisu and some hazelnut choc!Yummy!But kinda expensive too.=x

Orchard's outlet!The guy was nice to me!Got a discount!

Mich and crystal!(Oi crystal,you still owe me like 10 bucks!From sec 4!haha!)

Went out on sunday with my ex-classmates,and it was just like before!Fun and laughter!Went to watch the banquet,wasn't too bad,but everyone dies,and at the end of the show,you'd be left with this question,"Who killed zhang ziyi!!"Daniel wu's pretty cute too!=)

We sat at pasta-mania talking bout our secondary school life,and it ended up being a gossip session.=x And crystal had to go on and on trying to piss me off,i'm gonna rebuke here for the last time!Veronica doesn't look like yee shin so stop that!Or i'm gonna get started on your "him" again!

Gotta head out sometime again,alright peeps!Love ya guys...p.s bk we'd go lan with you next time round okies!

Someday someone might come into your life,and love you the way you always wanted.

If your someday was yesterday,learn.

If your someday is tomorrow,hope.

If your someday is today,cherish.

Jin xian gamely posing for a picture with his broken specs!

School didn't go all too well today,casper kept his word,and came to look for jin xian for a so called apology.Well probably because i think his ego has became as big as his ass, (P.s that means very big.) cause he felt that jin xian was laughing at him last friday.

I get laughed at every single day,but you don't see me going after those people who laughs at me.Yea anyway he got a punch right smack on his nose when he confronted jin xian,and it's been a while since i've seen people in a rage.

That adrenaline rush when you become furious,you can literally feel it running through your body.And you can feel every single pound of your heart beating,and in that moment,blood rushes up to your head and the only thing you wanna do,is feed him your fist.That's how you're gonna feel,felt it couple of years back,but i pretty much grew up after that and no more fighting for me.

Felt it again when i saw him on top of my friend,pulling his hair,yes hair pulling!I'm like let go of his hair you moron,how bout tugging his underwear?No form of fighting other than cat-fights are hair pulling involved.Felt like finishing jin xian's job,by the way his nose wasn't broken.Can't imagine life with a broken nose for him,no more flirting,no more two timing..no nothing.Except for a large ass.=x

Hope his blood stain on my shirt gets washed off or i'm dumping it.I'm not gonna have a part of him on me anywhere,yea i'm that disgusted at him...

Ain't he cute!First teacher i've come across that uses a pointer!And his posture..

See that small box in the basket?Thats the bell that goes DING~

Relief teacher for physics today,and it was fun playing around with him.Probably cause he looked a little gay,and he just won't get angry!Oh oh and the best part!Is the bell he brought,so cool and fun!I kept playing with it hoping to irritate him,but he's such a nice guy,didn't even complain.Best highlight was when he shaked his butt.=x Cute teacher!

Thanks alot to whoever out there that's spreading rumours bout me.

Thanks and more thanks especially to the one who started it.

You know who you are,i have an idea of where it started,so thank you i hope you're feeling better

now,if it's gonna make you happy seeing me look like crap.

I'm not gonna bother to clarify,so believe it if you guys want to.

I'm Mr jerk,so please make me look bad,and make that person feel good!=)

P.s if this was what you wanted that made you feel better,then go ahead and take it.

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 4 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.

Gender: Female

Pointers (WITH NO RANKING):

1) Honesty is a big big factor.
2) Being faithful...it's a common want so i think no elaboration is needed.
3) Confidence,but not to the point of having an ego,girls or people with egos turn me off.
4) No camwhores ty!Pictures are fine,but over-doing is not.
5) Kind hearted?Girl's who care for things or people or animals are a big plus,it shows the character of her.
6) Urm,it'd be best if she were shorter than me.=x Age doesn't really matter much to me.
7) Not too materialistic,i'd be glad if she were happy even if its a walk in the park or along the beach with me.
8) I think the most important thing is that she truly loves me,i think thats the biggest factor,looks are secondary.

I'm gonna choose Umairah,eelen,joanne and justina to do this.=) If you guys happen to see this of cause!No hard feelings if you people don't!Serious!Cause you guys,oops,girls are s'posed to be mugging.

Watched a great show last night on channel 5,for those of you who didn't,it's called "i am sam".
It's bout this single dad raising a baby girl,everything's normal except that the dad has a mental condition,he possesses the mental state of a 7 year old kid.So basically,in other words what some people deem as retarded.

He loved his daughter and does everything he can to raise her,through his starbucks job.And one day,on his daughter's 7th birthday,she was taken away from him by the authorities responding to allegations that he wasn't a competent father.And he fights to get her back by somehow managing to get a competent lawyer to fight for his rights.

And the first thing i told myself,was that I'M GONNA BE A DAD!One day in the future of cause!My parents are gonna have a heart attack if i said that now.It's just so heart warming to see him raising the little girl,and that makes me wanna be a dad someday too!It was pretty sad,touching and some parts just make you wanna cry.Especially when they got seperated and both of them desperately wanted to be together still.And hey it's not cause i'm emo or anything,it IS TOUCHING ok..

`You took my breath away with that smile of yours,and you made me feel so so lost wondering bout what to do.

If You're Not The One

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wannna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And Im praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

I'm still suffering from the hangover effect from yesterday's chalet.And no it's not alcohol,its lack of sleep.It was a new weird experience cause we went to just stay over at around 11,well credit to yanisa for fogetting to tell us earlier on.=)

Anyway,chalet ended up with 4 people majonging till morning,and four pigs upstairs in the room pigging it out on snacks and then a session of daidee till four.
4 of the pigs,shared two beds,and two pigs,shang and solomon took most of the space!ARGH!Ben complained the whole night cause shang "hijacked"the pillow leaving poor ben with none!Muaha!While the rest of us had one to ourselves!But it wasn't too good for me,i somehow ended up sleeping above the "longkang"or the space between the two beds.

And i ended up enduring someone's snoring and the melodious singing of the 4 monkeys playing majong downstairs.

Well other than that i guess it was kinda fun,it's been a while since i saw solomon anyway,and well i'm glad he hasn't changed.It's inevitable for people to change and drift away,but somehow it was the same as back in secondary school.I'm just glad we're still great pals!

`It's been awhile already,and he's doing whatever that's in his abilities.He's refrained from thinking,talking about,and he's kept the photos he carried around in that drawer of his.
But yet he saw her again in his dreams..just when he thought he made it,that swim back to shore.Yet just one night changed all that,and he's dragged back into the torrent cold waters of the ocean..

Miss you finally

But I miss you finally
But I miss you finally
Try to remember all these years
We shared the laughter we shared the tears
Thought that forever it would be
I realize you lie to me
I still hold on
Still dream of days when we were one

You played with my heart
You played with my mind
But I miss you finally
Right from the start
My love made me blind
But I miss you finally
All of these promises you made
This 4 letter word it seems to fake
Baby it's hard to understand
Now that you're gone
We reached the end
I still believe
Still dream of days when we were one

Alright and it's thursday yet again,and i'm .WAIT!IT'S THURSDAY?!!DAMMIT..
I just realised it's freaking thursday and i haven't done anything constructive,all i've managed to do is either sit in front of my beloved computer and occasionally watching sesame street with my bro ( Cause he won't switch channels.) And now it's hi5...sheesh..

School's reopening and i better set my goal for tomorrow,that is to STUDY!Argh...
Only correct thing i did so far this week is getting my hair cut,and going back to school to sit for a geog test which i'm gonna flunk.Guilt is overtaking me,and it's all because i missed a physics tutorial for over-sleeping.

I'm so gonna drag someone out to study with me tomorrow!Any volunteers?=x

Alright and now as everybody should know,our croc hunter is dead.Pretty much screwed himself doing what he loved.Let's mourn for a minute for him yea? .. .. ..

Ok done,anyway this goes out to my beloved shang whose favourite channel happens to be animal planet and is thus devastated by steve irwin's death.Oh yea shang!Remember the song when i'm gone by eminem?"And when i'm gone,don't mourn rejoice at the sound of my voice..."

That should pretty much sum up everything.

This fella's pretty funny,taught me a couple of stuff back then when i still watched kid's central and animal planet.Before i wasn't too keen on reptiles,and after,i kinda got hoodwinked that crocs and snakes were actually cute,until i saw another documentary and an email of a croc eating a lil boy.Needless to say i never watched him again.

Well i suppose this time i learnt something from him again,that you shouldn't screw around with animals,cause they can turn around and screw you back.Oh well lesson learnt,time to move on animal planet lovers!There's this other guy,some corwin guy that you all might wanna check out!=)

Bought tix today to lee hom's concert!Can't wait!=) Ain't he cute!

I have been trying to tell myself this for the past couple of months but it just doesn't seem to work.That is to start MUGGING!Bloody promos are coming and if i don't pull up my socks and look like a nerd,i'm gonna STAY BACK!And that is seriously shit,and the only consolation a guy can give himself for staying back is either,A:Got new J1 girls coming in what... B:One more year means extra time to study and get better grades ok... of which both are plain retarded,it's evident hot girls don't come to tpjc and staying back one year still means screwing up,evident in my class.(I'm not naming any specific people here.)

So yea there's no reason to stay back and more reason to study hard and shave my head bald along with all my pals,namely timo,dom and ben.(p.s provided timo starts mugging too.)If i screw up this time,i think the last option is to start praying guys wearing mascara or eyeliner becomes a really 'in" thing,and then i can hope and pray i get scouted to be one of the models for that!Woohoo!And this dream can really come true,if paul twohill wins singapore idol and then maybe if international idol comes up and he wins it too.Everyone's gonna go crazy over this eyeliner thing!But,if case two happens,whereby joakim wins singapore idol,which is gonna force singapore idol to shutdown,which then means an end to my dteams that would most probably never would have happened anyway.

Oh well whoever said life's perfect.
And so I've decided i'm gonna mug and bloody mug even more and i'm gonna get myself a mug that says mug and then mug with it...mug mug mug...!

Random picture that was taken by a random person.=x Thanks for being there anyway!=)

"Holidays" are here yet again!A week's worth of mugging time,which i know i won't make full use of.Well at least there's something to cheer about,Tpjc has to be the most "happening" school around,complete with teacher-student scandal,lousiest canteen award(ok this award is a self-proclaimed one),and the prata man incident,and the latest one?We've got the "hottest" teacher in our school!Non other than miss lydia tan! (a.k.a miss are-u-checking-me-out teacher)

`My heart raced,my mind went into a blank.For a moment i was caught off-guard,kocked off my feet.Time stopped for a moment,at that instant,when your eyes caught mine.Now that that moment's gone,my heart sinks,mind still in a blank,wondering what hit me,and regretting the shot i didn't take.I didn't give myself a chance to miss even,pathetic.

Went back to school on teachers' day,once there mixed emotions washed over me.As i came to terms that i no longer was there,the place where i spent four years,four very fulfilling years.And it seemed like yesterday when i first stepped into there,looking all nerdy with specs,and a center parting.=) (Thats for those who got to laugh at my Ez-link photo)

Things change and some things would never change,that is the warmth extended to us by the teachers.And the look on their face says it all when they see us,and i told myself it was all worthit going back cause it's a simple gesture to them that we've not forgotten them and we never would.

One thing i particularly feel,urm touched about,(i think touched is the best word i could find to describe how i felt,and i think there was sadness too.) is how my form teacher mdm goh still remembers every single one of our register numbers.She used to memorise our register numbers for attendance taking in the mornings,and it sorta became our "other name".It's been more than half a year gone by,and with it comes a new batch of class for her,but she has never forgotten any of us,and that truly shows her care.

And with all those emotions come the other side,the disgusted and just irked feeling.The true reason why we go back to school would be to see our teachers and perhaps try to get updated on their current lives as well as ours.It's teachers' day after all ain't it?But then it seems for some,to put it crudely,just kinda felt "photo taking session" was more important,snapping away and all,when they should have been with the teachers.Well,for this many would probably disagree and all,but then again it's my opinions and i seriously am close to labelling them as cam whores.

Life ain't that good right now and i'm gonna stop coming back here till i feel better,or i'd be writing sad and irritatingly boring posts bout how i feel to get it off me.Promos are coming,so study hard people,and let's see each other in j2 next year!=) Don't foget to have fun too!